To lift my spirits, I'm going to declare all the things I love about being a mum:
- I love that I had a deja vue moment after Peaches was born. I remembered dreaming about her and I know she was the baby I was waiting for.
- I love getting Peaches involved in the kitchen. She can help make tea - put the kettle on, get the cups out the cupboard, put the tea bags in the cups, wait for me to pour the water and milk, and then take the teabags out. She can mix up the bolognaise ingredients and likes mixing eggs and grating cheese for omelettes.
- I love that Recaro, Peaches and I shared a big meal of spaghetti bolognaise and watched movies this weekend. With our work schedules we rarely eat evening meals together as a family so this was completely lush.
- I love that Peaches is fantastic at going to bed and using her potty. I love how she looks when she's sleeping.
- I love that she likes to 'help' at the supermarket and as long as I keep talking to her she stays close and puts things 'back' whenever I ask. I love that I don't care if anyone things I'm talking to loud or too much to her.
- I love the way she hugs me so desparately after she's been naughty. I love that she responds to what I say, how I say it and I don't have to shout and be mean.
- I love that she's the prettiest, smartest little two and half year old. I love that she's tall and strong. I love her button nose and blue eyes. I love her laugh.
- I love it that Recaro tells me she can count to four even if she only ever says '1, 2, 8, 9, 10' to me.
- I love it that she tells her grandmothers she loves them, without any coaching or prompting from me.
- I love it that she knows the name of the town where she lives and what her full name is.
- I love that I can enjoy being a mum and don't get bogged down by the routines.
- I love that I get help with cleaning and ironing because otherwise I think that would get in the way of some of the best of the little moments.
- I love that she has a confident personality. She loves being around other children, but knows what she wants to do and doesn't wait for others to invite her in to a group.
- I love that I can take her into a restaurant and she won't run about. I love that I can send her to the waiter to ask for the bill. We don't have to hang around patiently anymore.
- I love that Recaro and take her to the pub on weekend afternoons. She meets our friends (and even their children too). Sometimes it's quiet... sometimes there's a band. It's fun, we dance and eat chocolate raisins. I think it could be a family tradition.
- I love that I taught her how to use a straw - all so that she can drink banana milkshake.
- I love that I don't know how she's going to turn out in the end. She's her own person. I don't have to live through her, but I do get to live with her. It's like playing volleyball - it's up to me to set her up with the best opportunities and watch what she does with them.
I'll say this for Nadya: I hope she's loving being a mother too.